Oh where, oh where has my sanity gone...

Do you ever feel like you have completly lost:

your mind,

control of your life,

the ability to keep the house clean,

the need to actually DO the laundry,

desire to do anything but blog and facebook (mostly because it requires no scrubbing),

track of who you are seperate from Mom,

your figure...*sigh*,

where your keys are,

your memory of when the baby ate last,

etc. etc. etc....

Yeah, my past few weeks have been like that! :D Now, don't worry, I am not too upset, or depressed or anything- I guess it just feels like I am always playing catch-up, and not getting ahead in the 'stuff' that I need or want to get done! :D I constantly make lists of the TO DO variety....and some days I am even able to get a several of those things done!

I am sure that a large part of our problem is that our place is really too small for the six of us! Josh and I have discussed finding a bigger place, in an actual neighborhood and not a condo-complex. We really could use at LEAST another bedroom, and some better storage. I know we have too much stuff, and I have been trying to go through and dejunk the 'stuff' that we sure dont' need...that just takes time that I don't seem to have!

For this past week I have really been trying to get to bed earlier, and excercise every day. The little ones are thwarting my every effort! Izzy has teeth coming in, so she has started some erratic sleeping issues...VERY erratic- so not at all predictable, of course. Sam doesn't nap on any schedule that I am aware of, so when I am trying to do one of these stupid...um, I mean beneficial workout videos he thinks we are playing or dancing...he is lucky he hasn't gotten kickboxed in the head, or that I haven't cha cha cha-ed on his foot. And do you know how hard it is to do situps when a two-year old is trying to bounce on your hideously out of shape tummy?

Yes, I know that many of you feel my pain! How in the freakin' heck do you overcome it? It is still cold enough outside that walking around our (boring) complex doesn't work too well, plus it is so...BORING!!!!!!!! Imagine walking around the same four streets where all you see is garages...no front yards, not people you know....BORING!!! ...and with Josh gone so much, with school and studying, I really need to figure out some new method of excercise that will work that I can do on my OWN! :D :( Part of my problem is that I can get so bored with videos, although I am going to get a new one from the library like every couple of weeks...at least that is my plan! :D I know that I could try to work with the baby-sitter thing, but it is SO much effort to get everyone together, dressed, in the car, and to some place....that I would rather be able to figure it out at home! After all I only have a finite amount of time to fit in the housework, excercise, cooking, all within the confines of the kids school and nap schedules! AAAAaarrrrrrgggghhhhhh! There are only so many hours in the day! ;)

My life has just seemed kindof out of control the past few weeks! Although I am pretty sure that my not getting much sleep at night is a HUGE contributor to this! I have so many things that need to get done, that something always seems to fall through the cracks! Yeeks!

OK, I just re-read this post, and while all I wrote is true... I don't want you to be all worried about me or anything! I think I just needed to vent for a minute. :D So stop calling each other and planning an intervention... :D!!!

Ahhhh...I feel much better having blah, blah, blahed to y'all! Aren't blogs the best for random insane ramblings? Well...at least mine is! :D Thank you for putting up with my psychosis, if you have any tips or help or whatever please feel FREE to comment to me...obviously I could use the advice! LOL